Time is tick tacking, I'm still in bed. The phone rings, I'm to damn tired to answer, the alarm goes on but I wont stop it from ringin to tired for that. Mia is not responding, she's in deep sleep.
Time to get up, the first thing I do in the morning is to check the computer, I watch my forex portfolio, still looking good, the stock market is not open yet, great this will save me some time.
I play shortly with my cats; Diva and Lillen.
I'm standing on the balkony it's quite bright outside, the sun is not up yet. Further away I see a father with his child, I stand still looking at them, wondering.

I wonder how their day will be like, I wonder how much the father earns per month, I see it like this if you have children you gotta be sitting on something because the margins have to differ. income vs costs right?.

I wonder if he have some stocks, bonds or maybe he purchase forex, who knows maybe he have his own business or maybe.. I dont know, whatever he's into I gotta know how much he prosper from it, do I have the potential to invest some?.
Mia is up.. good morning beautiful, the love of my life.
She's in the shower, I'm standing still in the hallway faced down, thinking "more money, more more", it's a disease called greed, I'm loving it.
five minutes later I'm sitting infront of the computer and I'm not doing anything special just thinking of how I can advance, their's so many people in my surrounding, what do they do?.
I need to call them all and ask them how they're doing, and maybe if I'm "lucky" I may strike one or two..

nah! I dont know, I mean most of them are my friends.. not friends friends but you know what I mean, I may gain something useful I mean it's not personal it's business.

*updating* work in progress.

According the administation at the university I should have recieved a syllabus and registration info about the business intelligent class but noo.. still nothing.
Man what are they really doing overthere?.

I've tons of stuff to do but I barely have time for anything right now, plenty to do at work, at the office, in school, personal stuff, family matters and friends who have their birthday's coming up and last but not least graduations.

"complain, complain".. not good for my law of attraction.

We are re-organizing the business, the office, we have a new game plan and it sure smells good.
More info to come, but dont think it will be useful info.

Johan's birthday today and we'll celebrate his birthday by having a small trip to Denmark and hopefully do some crazy stuff.

Good night people!

Strategic Human Resource Management

It sounds good doesn't it?

I'm finally done with the registration, I've signed up for Strategic Human Resource Management which is due to start on June 11th. I hope to gaine some strategic knowledge of human resource management, also gain analytical tools which I could use in critical assessment and implementations.

I still have some registrations left to go, but I'll save them for tomorrow, dont worry I'll still be on schedule. So what lays ahead?, major readings and catching up, everything from e24, di.se, affarsvarlden.se from national to international. That's what I do, but what I do best is talk.

the last part came from a senior stockbroker who told me I was made for the job because the way I persuade people and the ability to find winning trends. Recruitment at the office was made through some tests, based on finding trends, analytical technics and the ability to sell.

When I got accepted to College in the state I jumped full of joy, and now I'm something I've allways wanted and I'm not even smiling, strange. Could you tell me what actually differs?.
If you have encountered similar situation please get back at me, an acceptable smiling from the inside should be enough.



P.S I'm happy

oh man, the last few days have been great, I mean really great. I have had the time to recuperate myself and actually spend more time with Mia, which she appreciates.

I have been outside, talking long walks..

Not the size of the dog, it's the size of the fight

Now everything changed for the second time, like the wind changing direction, I'm cold and naked again".one once said "what counts is not necessarily the size of the dog in the fight, it's the size of the fight in the dog" which will determine the winner, but the last few years hasn't been good at all, I have lost most of my fights. just a few years ago I was hungry as ever, business was thriving, I was creating major networks and the competition was none.

I never left any survivors, but somehow everything changed, I changed.I'm no longer satisfied, I give up to easy, it's like all I need to do is to reach my goal, and for some reason I just toss everything away, and I have questioned myself several times, if I really was in the right field, is my workplace inspiring enough to motivate me to gain further goals?. I've been quite depressed to be honest, It's like something is missing, I'm moving forward but I still have the wrong name on my door. (if you get the picture).Nothing has been as it used to be, it's like my surroundings are moving way to slow to get me in the mood of fight, Sweden in general, it's like the people in the outskirts of town are slow minded, I'm not complaining or something, I'm not trying to irritate or tease nobody, but maybe I'm still adapted to the americans, and the way they work..

becasuse it seems like the americans seek the best way to become more competitive and make business thrive and escalate to a whole different level.I decided to take a long vacation from everybody and just focuse on being me, recover my strenght to go back in the fight, I was gone for a few months then got back again, but I gave up even before the fight even got started.And now I'm back again, but this time things are different, my team is stronger and we've made major change in our strategi and our work capacity is so much better.A friend of mine said reason to my behavior wasn't lack of knowledge, I just wasn't mentaly ready for a fight, and for somehow people fail, everybody will fail, it's in our nature to fail and to gain something from the loss.because it's no the size of the dog that matters it's the fight in the dog, that will detemine a winner.

Save tonight

Bare with me, as we all go through moments of clarity, while some people struggles with defining themselves and other struggles with keeping their feets down, we sometimes tend to miss the beauty of living, but the only thing we need to know is that the world tend to unfold itself, sooner or later.so save it tonight because today we dont need to fight to break the dawn, because tomorrow we may all be gone, all we need is you and me and a bottle of wine, the reason is that for a moment we all can stop what we are doing or plan to do, we sometimes need to think about ourself, because success is what we need in life, and that is to be strong enough to look back without loosing our own history.I devour life more than ever because of the fear that tomorrow may come and take me away. dont let your ego get carried away.. save your life, your love, your dreams and save a day for peace because we are saving tonight for the beauty of life.

A fading history!

In Breif. Just like you, I take a second to just view you from a distance, my feet doesn’t stop moving, because what I see is just a reflection of a different life, our conversations, smiles, friendship, relationship, or whatever is just a reflection of me and you, a fading history!.